hello(:
went theme park yesterday.gosh.thats the most boring place i've went my whole life.bahh!waste money lor.then had barbeque after that.i was baby sitting!lavigne is damn cute la!hawhaw.rachel too!hwhaw.okay.i'm going nuts now!i'm watching north shore okay!i'm going to swooooon soon.hawhaw.i'm off now!till the next time(:









;until my dying day.

hello(:
today was ptc.and my aunty came at like 6.30?so judy liling wanling and i went to tiong.sat at kfc.wanling ate.then went home.liling went walking with qianru.then me and judy talked about many many suff.hawhaw.okay.it was a nice talk.rather than stone and listen to radio then cry right!after that we went to roof top(: my favourite hang out okay!we talked laughed.haiyer.my depression periods.hawhaw.liling went off.then me and judy went back to school at 5.30,sat with ezaty and someone.laughed even more.and me and ezaty actually hate ___!can you believe it?i thought ezaty was okay with her.so i go with the flow lor.hoho.so we actually thought of the same thing la.so nuts please.then it was time for ptc.):
i hate mdm lim forever and ever.AMEN.i dont like her lor.shuddup la you!neh neh pok can!haiyer.i thlow you in le lustbin len you know ar!go fly fly the cheeeken!hawhaw.so today was surprisingly great(: till the next time(:



;now things just aint the same and i'm wishing that you were still here.

hello(:
today was sad,depresing,then FUN.hawhaw.really!funnaye mann.it was damn depressing for me and liling): bahh!wth.after school went to tiong with char,karen and liling.then we sat at macs.laugh and laugh.walk around.laugh even more.hawhaw.then judy joined us at macs.damn spas please.LAUGH LAUGH non stop mann.we played with balloons,laugh,took pictures.damn alot lor.then we played hide and seek(: damn fun la.i hid at tom and stefanie,ero lingerie shop,then courts(:
courts was the longest.together with judy and karen.char seek-ed.hawhaw.damn funnaye mann.then we played dare or dare with some sec2.piang.we damn loser la.i can just laugh.the chilli sauce,balloon and paper(: thats all we dared on.hawhaw.then went home.i shant say anything else.coz i did something bad today):
till the next time(:




;i have to face the TRUTH right now.

hello(:
today was okay la.had PE(: then we run and run.hawhaw.nice nice!everything was going smooth till recess.sigh.brokedown many times today.in school,tiong,home was the worst.): i so need help.i hate it so much la.liling has to cheer up too(: we're on the same boat lor.haiyer.i shouldnt have told her.it was a big mistake.my biggest mistake was being super blind and extremely stupid.yeah.so both sides lose.especially on my side.bahhh!i hate this school.i want to shift.i want to runaway from everyone.rarrrh!gosh.i'm suppose to love fridays.now i'm hating it.): all thanks to ____!can this get any worse.ohh mann.whatever please.RARRRH!






;i'm twisted coz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on.on the other side i want to breakdown and cry.

hello(:
i'm bored.hawhaw.i so want a new wallet please.something like chars'.damn nice to use okay.karen is stoning beside me.and creating herself a blog.and ezaty is fighting with the printer.she's inserting and inserting the same PAPER again and again.hawhaw.okay.i'm going to swoon soon.i'm listening to patrizio(:
okay.till later(:






;parla la piu piano.

you make me go thinking,go worrying,go crying everytime i'm with you.and everytime i'm not.
you make me tear when you're with me.
you make me wonder when you're far.
so with or without you.
makes no little difference.









;dont go faking it.

hello(:
first day wasnt too bad.at all!heh.yeah.no mood swings.and i hope not for like the other weeks ahead.okay.so today was great(: hawhaw.i came early today!like for the first time without cabbing la.yay!went to tiong with liling,judy and karen today.liling left with her brother,judy left for sentosa,me and karen decided to walk around tiong and stuff.and eunice calls me a stalker!please lor.then me and karen really stalked her la!karen was broke.i wasnt la.but i only wanted to use my coins.so we had to borrow 50 cents from char!hoho.char came from town to tiong to meet us.then we went to macs.and we exchanged the thank you cards with chars' friends.damn retarded la.then me and karen took the train and talked about things.damn depressing mann.she's could be the only one in school that can understand me.haha.my daughty and i are on the same boat(: what to say right.like mother like daughter.hawhaw.hilarious please.then in the train i saw this ah pek.he dig his nose and wipe at the seat.yuckks please.i so want to puke mann.i'm so not going to touch the train anymore.haiyer.
people people!WATCH NORTH SHORE!damn nice okay!just keep staring at frankie and jason,and you'll fall in love with those two la!(:



;scrumdidilyumptious!

hello(:
i went to tampines with jar to meet my aunt.and i saw SOME numbers that made me smile at myself la!heh.jar so knows why i was smiling la.but she had to rub it in.like whatever please.hoho.then stayed at her place.hawhaw.damn scandalous and stuff!i shant say anything mann.haha.
then yesterday was the 18th!yayness please.haha.me and my mum walked the stretch from ps to heeren.we did some shopping and stuff.piang.my leg can break mann.and theres like so totally nowhere to sit.then we sat for awhile at the bustop.then met my mums' friends at heeren.ate at marche.gosh.i ate cheese sausage and rosti!my stomach can just burst mann.i enjoyed the bread though.hawhaw.and i went to the zoo today!i love the cats country part(: so preetaye please.haiyer.ben and jerry's are superr sinful lor.hawhaw.and now my fingers are getting numb.till the next time(:




;it was just a slight flirtation.

hello(:
okay.today wasnt so bad la.i went for dinner with my papa and my SUNSHINE(: hoho.my rascalistic brother.we went long john.tsk.damn lame la okay.long john's suppose to cater the best FISH fillets.but the chicken taste so much better please.way way better.hoho.funnaye la.my sunshine was uber cute today!i took pictures of us.haha.but i'm scared to upload.i so dont want it to go haywire like the old one.RARRH!i feel moronic mann.i so hope that next week will be alright.yeah.i hope that it wouldnt be as bad as this two weeks): it sucks like shit la.sigh.i shouldnt talk about it la.me and daughty are going to have a long looong talking,screaming,crying session next week(: the 3 in1!ohh the fun.i'm so looking forward to it.the other day i thought i saw SOME car plate number.and i smiled to myself.but then i saw it clearly and i began to tear.the last number was wrong): i so cant get her off my head.questions keep popping up in my fucking head.and i get no answers!so annoying please.and when i start to think about it,i feel like a vampire la.i want to bite myself!i know i sound crazy la.but hello!i'm at home with my sunshine and my maid?just the wrong people to talk to la.rarrh!whatever please.oh god please make next week and the rest of the weeks ahead so so so much better than my total major blues weeks!coz i cant stand it any longer): sigh.
okay.forget it.lets talk about my skin!i'm tan okay!i can see lines on my back!yayness!my tans are even.thanks to my banana boat dark tanning oil(: hoho.i'm promoting mann!okay.my fingers are fucking painful.so till the next time(:

"i've got MY SUNSHINE on a cloudy day." (:




;we're history.and yet still a misery.

hello(:
rarrh!here i go again.i always promise myself things and never do it.fuckk la.i promised that i wont talk to ____ when i see her.but yet i did!how dumb can i be mann.i'm such a failure in everything i do.gosh.why did YOU even create someone like me.i hate almost everything that relates to my life.i hate being called sadist.im so not okay.its just the wrong word mann.maybe self inflicting.but wth.i dont fucking care la.i think my life is so against me.life takes away the people you love.life makes you cry.and i fucking hell dont appreciate it la.i hope one day whilst crossing the road a bus or whatever comes out from nowhere and crash me.that'll be like the happiest day of my ending life.okay.i'm crapping too much.yuckk mann.being in total major blues sucks okay.shitness.





;so you take the smiles from all of our years and i'll take the tears.

I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE.
I HATE ME.
I HATE YOU.
I HATE 060306.
I HATE PHONEYS.
I HATE LIES.
I HATE ALMOST EVERYTHING!


YOU should really end my life now.coz i seriously dont appreciate it.come and stab me,shoot me,just fucking kill me.



;would you even care.

hello(:
i think skye is damn cute la!she's from tp and she's just incredibly adorable!heh.superr cuteness please.i'm not on-ing with the whole liking people again okay!hoho.okay.i'm too too tired to blog.till the next time(:

evanescence-my immortal(:

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still haveAll of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me(:

hello(:
towned with dave and jar.TOWN IS SO FUCKING DEAD LA!so damn boring please.rarrrh!towning with them was okay la.yeah.apart from the yaks that happened.it turned out pretty cool la.its just so boring): i miss daughty tonnes.we plan to go towning when she gets back!yayness.at least that will keep my mind off things.i hope mann.i hate being in total major blues.it sucks like shit la okay.i'm spending 3 days with my papa,mummy and rascal(: ohh the fun!we shall go retarded!they took leave for me and my brother okay.yayness please.i watched CRY WOLF sneak preview!bon jovi is so damn cute please.HOHO.i' going retarded.jar and dave slept okay!so ass la.hoho.at least now,my mood isnt so bad la.but i'm still wondering about what happened.many people said that ____ isnt lying.but wth.thinking about it spoils my mood la okay.RARRRH!




;i want THE TRUTH from you.

hello):
i miss them): all my people.i can just die now la.these few days are so so screwed.yeah.i just feel like killing myself okay!so cheebye can.so ass.rarrrh!i can just kill everyone that irritates me la.):
okay.maybe not till that bad la.but.WHATEVER LA!so not in a mood to blog now.so.BYEEEEEEEEE.

medley(:

Watch my life,

Pass me by,

In the rearview mirror

Pictures frozen in time

Are becoming clearer

I don't wanna waste another day

Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
Driving underneath my skin

Like a hunger, Like a burning,

To find a place ive never been

Now I'm broken,

And I'm faded,

I'm half the man i thought i would be

But you can have what's left of me
I've been dying inside,

Little by little,

No where to go,

But going out of my mind

In endless circles,

Running from my self until,

You give me a reason for standing still
Driving underneath my skin

Like a hunger, Like a burning,

To find a place i've never been

Now I'm broken,

And I'm faded,

I'm half the man i thought i would be

But you can have what's left of me
It's falling faster,

Barely breathing,

Give me something,

To believe in

Tell me: It's all in my head
Take what's left

Of this man

Make me whole

Once again.

Hopeless, wondering if anybody noticed,

Feeling like you're drifting out of focus

Cause you're hopeless

You're just a hollow soul.

Say goodbye to the people

And poison in your life

Say goodbye to the heartache

And trouble and strive

Say hello to the love thats just begun

There will always be a brighter day

You have to carry on(:

Long day and I'm ready

I'm waiting for your call

'Cos I've made up my mind

My heart aches with a hunger

no want that you were mine

No I cannot deny
And my skin is crawling,

and my name you're calling a voice from the back of my mind,

someone i thought i left behind you left a hole inside of me,

never heal completely

my heart aches

never be more than less to you

my heart aches

all of the things you put me through

my heart aches

never be good enough for you

my heart aches

why do you hate me like you do.

I Hate Myself

I live a life of self abuse

I think it's time to tie the noose

It's too late now to reconstruct

I know I'm gonna self destruct

When I die I'll go to hell

You know I'll like it very well

Lots of junkies just like me

Screaming for eternity(:

hello):
i hate 060306!i hate that day forever okay!rarrrh!i'm so screwed la!i'm super fucking angry!rarrh!i need to put my mind of things soon!but what the hell am i going to do till sunday?i feel like screaming!i feel like crying!i feel like slashing!RARRRRH!i've been in total blues these few days la.i filled my bucket yesterday):
i'm living a lie okay.whatever people tell me is a lie!fuckk!when i thought everything would go well,it ALL falls to pieces okay!): i feel like crying!it doesnt feel enough la!i dont know whats the point of blogging.i think my blood pressure can go HIGH okay.

i hate my screwed up life.
i hate myself.
i hate anything and everything that relates to my stupid life.
i hate ME.
i hate feelings.
AND I'D RATHER BE A ROBOT!
once its screwed,you THROW IT AWAY!
i dont trust myself la!
and I FUCKING HATE LIARS!
tell me the truth okay!
stop faking la!
rarrrrh!

lee ryan-turn your car around(:

Well its not about them
Its all about us
Can you hear it again
and just take on trust
yeah you still got a way
to get out of this
One story town
So you swallow your pride
Whe you're fillin' with ga
sand there aughin inside about you kicking your arse
And you gotta stand up, if you dont
then there just falling down
So why dont you
Turn your car around
Forget your way back home
cause its not me there anymore
Turn you car around
We're better off alone
I'll get myself up off the floor
So i'll tell you its black
but you know that its white
I say everythings cool and
you dont have to fight
and theres nothing outside
in the dark there
just waiting for youand i wish it was true.

hello(:
i pon school today.rarrrh!its the last day.and yeah.i was super lazy to wake up la.jar came!that idiot pon school too la.hoho.i dont think i want to spend the rest of today at home la.boring okay.i want to go tiong!(:
i'm so going to miss everyone la.sigh.no schhol,no recess,no GREEN TEA!no laughs too!i'll just cry my eyeballs out okay.i'm going to miss ah ling,prince and daughty!rarrh!i want to cry la.nevermind.
i'm going camping at sentosa!ohh the fun(: that shall keep my mind of things.i hope): i know our tent is fucking huge okay!its a 10 men tent!hoho.funfunfun!i shall plan towning soon!its been a long time since i towned with my 3(: it always seemed super short.yeah.only one week and i'm complaining!ohh die.i'm feeling super upset):
i shant fill my bucket.coz it'll just make me do something stupid.
till the next time(:





i fake a smile everytime i'm with you):
rarrh!i'm feeling so down whnever i come home.
i just want to keep my mind of things.
helphelphelp):

hello(:
mann.today was okay la.i went to town then made my way to church.gosh.i'm damn broke!i hate being such a broker.it sucks okay!RARRR!jia jia is funnaye please.i lost my neos!all of it la!i want to take some more!
xiuhui is always being a phony!stop it la!go her ah ma house for what AR?i want to know la.stupid phony xiuhui!i heart my asshole(:
till the next time(:

nickelback-faraway(:


This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,you know, you know
That I love youI have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go(:

hello(:
gosh.i lost my fucking watch!ass la.i left it at the com lab yesterday and.WOOOOSSSHHH!its gone!rarrrrh!i miss it so much mann.idiot la!that com lab is cursed i tell you ):
i went to the ____ yesterday and today.today was bloody bloody fun!there were 5 of us.including this asshole sec 1 person.we offed the light and we were talking about ghost stories to jokes.retarded please.when the sec 1 left.it was more hilarious la.ohh the fun(:
i love ____.my new hangout!i love it so much.i shant mention the place.hoho.i'll totally mati la.gosh.till the next time(:

hello(:
i'm happy today!fucking happy!AHHHHH!i'm high now.hoho.gosh.i love love love 020306(: not really la.but wth.i rawk la!rarrrr!i feel like smiling(:
i'm going cuckoo!BLOODY CUCKOO!i seriously am happy today.everything i planned fell to pieces.then daughty put all my pieces together!and i'm so happy!I LOVE DAUGHTY(: